I just got back from a job interview today and I feel like I bombed it. My boyfriend and friend feel I rocked it's socks off but, for some reason, I can't seem to shake this sense of utter failure. That's not the only time where I've felt like I've become a failure. In fact, every day I wake up with this sense that I could do and be something more than I am now.
Today in particular, I was really soaking in my sense of failure. I've always been shadowing my sister...my twin sister to make things even worse. Comparing our accomplishments and failures. Well, my sister was in Honor's Society and I wasn't. She got amazing grades and I strugged to even pass, now, she is married, lives on her own, and has a successful job where she makes a lot of money. Me? Well, I have an amazing relationship with my boyfriend of a year and a half, but I live with my mom, no job, but I am in college. It got to the point where I was even wondering why I wake up every day. What have I accomplished in my life?
Well, it finally dawned on me something that I will hope that you readers will take away from this post. Success is not measured by how much money you make, where you live, or what your past was. Success is measured by your attitude, how you live your life, and what you make of your life. I may not have had the best grades in school but I am making my way through college and getting great grades now, success. I may not be living on my own, but I can use the money I would normally spend on rent and put it towards a new car or other things I may want, success. I have a boyfriend who loves me, a great life, and I wake up happy, success.
Success cannot be measured alone by the accomplishments you do. It's a part of it, but you shouldn't base your succession on just that. Otherwise, everyone would feel like a failure. There is always something more that can be done. Everyone and I mean everyone is successful in there own way. Sometimes, I just need to remember that.